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Name: Nancy
Birthday: 6/6/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: reading, movies - independent films rock, the simpsons,Family Guy, Invader Zim, and hanging with friends.
Expertise: Forensic Science, serial killers, and profiling
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
1/17/2003
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| Hi everyone. How are you all doing? | | |
| I am now a college graduate. I wore the dress that my mother picked out for me. I really don't have any pictures of it though. It was a full length black and white gown. It was really quite a beautiful gown to tell the truth but a bit on the uncomfortable side. It was a boring day and I really didn't enjoy all the attention. My mother loved it though, and that's all that mattered. I was only called forth during the party so that my mother could show me off. I'm really glad that she enjoyed it. A few of my friends showed up to my party, we drank, goofed around, it was a fine night, but I could have done without. My friend is having a party on saterday and I am attending another graduation that I have to be a part of tomorrow. It will all soon end and everyone will be happy. I hope that soon I will join in the happiness as well. | | |
| I graduate from college tomorrow. I suppose that I should be happy about this but there really isn't much to be happy about. I have no real plans for the future, but I have a lot of people expecting way too much from me. I will be walking up a bunch of fucking stairs wondering what the fuck does this even mean. That i wasted 4 years of my life. I really don't know. I have spent the past few months just trying to get to this point and now I have gotten there and I have no idea what the hell is next. POintless all of it is pointless. | | |
| So things are going. I would like to thank all of you that showed concern for me. I am going through something really hard right now and I know how difficult it is for people to help in these times. Just knowing that all of you are there for me is more than I can I ask of any of you. Graduation is near and I would like to think that everyone in my life that has helped me through these last four years has earned a little bit of that diploma. I cannot say that it is mine alone and that through my hard work I earned it. It is all of ours. My friends, my family, and all my loved ones out there. I have been blessed by God because few people are as luck as I am when it comes to being loved.
And I would like to send a special thank you to that special man in my life. Thanks Jesse, I love you tons. You hold me and I'll hold you babe. | | |
| Things are getting a bit too real for me right now. My mother's operation is loaming ever closer every day (that terrifies me and sinks me into a horrible depression), graduation has me beyond stressed out, My classes are driving me up a wall, my friends seem to expect this really cheery person (which I usually am) that I really don't feel like being right now, and i feel like just giving up. I know that I can't just give up, I only have like 3 more weeks and then I'm done, but it is so hard for me. Most of the time I just feel like crying and screaming, but I put a smile on my stupid face and pretend for other people, because other people don't care they don't want to waste their time trying to comfort me. I can't see Jesse because he lives too far and I just don't have the time to drive all the way over there. My friends are trying to finish up their year as well and have their problems. I just feel alone right now. | | |
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